hey peeps,

been mia for a while, sorry about that. life has been pretty monotone these days.
celebrated yvonne's birthday, some week back, and annie's birthday yesterday, peiyan's birthday is around the corner...
i know its supposed to be like happy and exciting but yup...hahaha...birthdays, no lack of those, juz lack of special ones. sorry for the poor coverage babes, i am darn shagged from netball trng, =p
yupz, anyways got my letter of rejection from smu.
it is pretty damn political the way they phrase things. it sounds nice. but a rejection letter is a rejection letter, they dont call it a rejection letter, they call it a letter of notice but its pointing in the same direction. =p
my parents prepared a big meal to cheer me up, i feel pretty bad though, i am a poor investment for them, in fact, i've become a constant liability, =(. it does suck alot. they're so worried, its in their eyes, i am a terrible person. it is juz terrible terrible terrible. i need a fix.
i'm so sorry.
it could have been different but it isn't, because of me. and i don't have any excuses, which makes it all the more worse. this sucks. sucks sucks sucks sucks. i can't imagine the day where i have to start asking them for money again, they'll have no practical reason to give it to me but they still do, juz because i'm their daughter. this sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks.
you better start saving your money dory, shelf your plans. no new shoes sneakers clothes and weekend movies. sorry pals, no more lavish dinners or desserts on me. i wish someone could teach me how to change. i regret it i really do. this sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks. no turning back, juz loads and loads of regrets and worries. life's hard for me, but its definitely harder for daddy and mummy. i suck suck suck suck suck.
btw peiyan, transfat does causes cancer as long as you consume too much of it, it doesn't matter how finely you chew your food. =p. trust me, i know.
tsk tsk dory fish, reflecting is useless if you dont do anything abt it, gotta change gotta change gotta change, why wont you listen??? you've been stupid a couple of times already and you never change never change never change.
btw everyone, i passed my final theory. i know i'm being a little wierd and random right now but i am experiencing an emotional roller coaster. i need some good chocolate cake. maybe you could fb me one. hahaha. anyways passing ym final theory means i can sit for my driving practical but as my instructor is somewhere very far away at the moment (as his voicemail says) i'll juz haf to wait. for now, i'll juz bum around, do abit of sudoku, work on my vocab and grammar.
and then maybe one day i'll blog abt all my funny students. hahaha.
dory fish dory fish dory fish,what will i do with you?

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