hey guys,

today was a good day for reflection.
my day might haf been packed,
but all the people i met,
i spoke to,
i spoke abt
and thought about sent thoughts running through my head.
even the dream i had last night,
actually
it was a nightmare, it really freaked me out.

i dreamt about acjc,
i dreamt about why my appeal didn't work out.
it was because i dyed my hair....
followed by a huge quarrel with the captain about why i was blacklisted and someone else with dyed hair wasn't...
completely freaky.

anyways. today.
i went to school to get my report book.
met lots of people.
jasmine, tse ruey, thomas, pei shan, cheryl, mei qi, miss k.lim, hui hui, tian ju, wei yu, wei ling, yan lin, sharon, jin yee, xin yu, ann, pamala, jane, joleen, wen jing, den i saw li ru at bukit panjang plaza. i later met up wif hui hui annie and xian yee...
all these people,
no matter who, my badminton teammates, my classmates, my schoolmates, my teachers or juz acquaintances...i probably won't be seeing them in the near future.
i'm moving on to a new phase in life, to make new friends(i hope), to learn new things, to well...juz to move on.

i'll miss every1 of them, no matter who, i'll never forget them, not even one. at this point of time...its true...S.H.E.'s new song.."bu xiang zhang da"..in translation...don't wanna grow up or something in that sense.

"bu xiang zhang da, zhang da hou shi jie jiu mei tong hua,"
"bu xiang zhang da, zhang da hou jiu hui shi qu ta."
once we grow up...e world will no longer believe in fairy tales, there'll nvr be "happily ever after", we'll lose e people around us...
some ppl move on to sth good, some ppl move on to sth they can't wait to leave and well...some ppl are just "stuck".
wonder, which kinds will everyone be??

forever goodbye my childhood.
signing off tingy~~

hey guys

hmmm.
once again,
i don't know,
to be
happy or sad.

yesterday,
i held a
party
at
home.
it was a
bang!
it wasn't
really
party-like
however,
i had
lotsa time
to catch up
with
all my
"old"
friends.
they're the
people
closest to
my heart.
all the times
we had....

however,
disappointments
are
unavoidable
in life.
my appeal
to acjc,
was rejected
flat.
everytime
i think of
this failure,
my eyes
brim
with "salt-water"
haha.
its...
i dind't
seat around
all holiday
and wished
to be
accepted.
i went
for their
trainings,
i pestered
my teacher,
for my
testimonial.
i realli
tried.
ALL FOR NOTHING.

can
someone please
tell me.
i'm not dumb,
i'm not lazy.
i already
know that
actually.
or at least,
its what
i think.
but
at this point.
i
just need
a little
confirmation.
because
well..
it dosen't
matter now,
anyway.
maybe,
i didn't
try hard enough.
actually
i know.
i'm realli
quite depressed.

signing off
tingyz~~ :P:P

hey guys,

let me
tell u.
today.
has been
a
very wierd one.

firstly,
i woke up
with
nth to do
at all.
secondly,
my
phone bill
arrived.
$$$
dad,
confiscated
my phone.
he also
passed me
a letter.
that the 3rd thing
that happened.
i got
an eagles award.
YAY.
and,
my elder brother,
so sweet and nice,
bought me
a cd,
tt i've always wanted but nvr had money to buy
secretly.
ohhhhhhhhh
i love him
despite his
weird
behaviour. :P:P
finally,
i'm having a party,
for nothing
at home.
and,
oh my god!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
u won't believe it
but my mum
approved!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
she's gonna pay!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
but i'll haf to
like show
appreciation
by working for her
for juz
a FEW hours.
but, i get to
see all my closest friends
from
css, lps and
all over singapore!!!!!!!!!!
and they get to stay over
at my place
in my room
overnight
til silent night(btw tt's christmas eve)!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
EVEN the
GUYS!!!!!!!

so u see.
i don't noe
to feel happy
or sad.
but
whatever.
do
take note.
my cell
has been
confiscated.

signing off
tingyz~~ :P:P

hey guys

today
was boring
i
tried
looking for a job
got hooked up
for two
interviews
"tuition coordinator"
not veri interested
not veir needy either
but
i simply
haf too much time
so ya.

also,
fate played
a veri mean trick
on me
today.
i realized
as xiao qi says
"what is to be is to be, what is not to be is not to be"
sigh.
depression sets in..

signing off
tingyz~~:P:P

hey guys

fell off
my bed
yesterday.
sprained
my ankle
a little
went for
training
anyway.
got worst
in the afternoon.
but
i still could walk
so
i went to
the
badminton bbq anyways
was at east coast
even cycled
and
like annie said
i
"play until too crazy"
came back crippled
but
could still walk
with a limp
went to bed
woke up
as a
handicapped.
rolled around
in my room
on
my swivel chair
took 15 mins
to
crawl down to
the living room
sat there
watched tv
the ENTIRE day
its gonna explode i think
haha

anyways
doctor (my dad) says
i'll be out of training
for at least
mon and wed,
seriously
bummed out
there goes
my chance of
applealing
into ac.
feel like
dying.

feel like
only.
dont haf e
courage
to
carry it out
YET.
hafta wait.
but its okay,
as in
i'm still sad
but
i'll get over it.
bloody sister
is bugging me abt
using e com when
she can
bloody WALK
to the other com.

call me if
anyone
wannawatch
chicken little.

signing off
tingyz~~