i'm scared to shit.
i know i screwed up.
i can feel it, its doom, and its coming my way.
and thats not the scariest.
the scariest is, it doesn't matter how well i do. my parents won't come and tell me "well done, we're really proud of you." you see, they're pretty used to A's. and there's no way i can do better than anyone else, i can only do worse.
how am i supposd to handle the disappointment?