hello everybody

heh. i shall not mention what a wonderful day today is because my blog is becoming increasingly repetitive, lolz.
tsk tsk tsk.
okay.
and i have officially aborted the chunky blog plan.
lolz.
its juz too far away and too foggy and too drunk to remember...esp the badminton gathering.
lolz.
hmmmmmm...............
i am sssssoooooooooooo sssssssssaaaaaaaaaadddddddddddd....
my plans for this week are not going right at all...
tsk.
hmmm.
shall not elaborate.
this is saddening saddening SADDENING.
hmmmm.
and i think i'm finally driving mengqi mad. lolz.
no more nonsense from the dory fish.
saddening saddening SADDENING.
n i'll probably give the next badminton gathering a miss.
shocking shocking SHOCKING.
i dunno. i juz feel so nua...maybe i'll change my mind by next week.
hmmmm
AHAHAHA mengqi juz did sth totally stupid!!! HAHAHAHAHAH!!!
lolz.
okay. that is the most interesting that has happened to day and probably the most interesting thing that is going to happen today.
hmmm. i think i should reflect on my life.
hmmm.
shouldn't we always reflect on our lives?
hmmmm.
would we really still make the same choices over again?
not really. i think not.
i know if we "change our decisions" we would not haf met all the great friends we have now, or lived the same exciting/boring life or get the same good/lousy results.
i know we can't change anything. but yup...its nice juz to think of the possibilities.
i noe its sounds quite stupid, or not very smart. there are things i really don't like.
hmmmm.
maybe. i'ld change my cca, i like badminton but well maybe now i prefer to sit in the backseat and let someone else tell me what to do.
maybe i'ld change my college. sure i met lots of great people but there's been places i rather be sometimes. maybe i wouldn't even go to college at all if i knew i was going to screw up bad.
maybe i'ld choose to be less loud and more discreet and hang out with other people because i'm always trying to guess what they're thinking. ya. more omniscient. i think tts the word. omniscient.
hmmm. i'll also change the way i judge and treat people.
i mean i haven't been fair to everyone n sometimes i feel i want to make it up to them. sorry.
but of course, there are people who i wish i killed there and then. lolz.
yupz. if only i could turn back time.
but there's one thing i know for sure. i'll definitely study harder. its juz petrifying not knowing for sure u're going to pass. because then, i might fail.
hmmm.
who came up with the word if? if if if if if.
if.
well, whoever realised there's uncertainty
oh wells.
its all in retrospect i guess.

hmmmm..

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