the world is,
an utterly cold, cruel and unforgiving
not forgetting torturous
place to be.
bet you didn't know.
really.
you wouldn't know what the world is REALLY like until you step through that one way door.
i'm halfway through it and i understand what people mean when they say
"ignorance is bliss".
on the bus today.
i saw this little girl,
bright big and sparkly eyes.
toothy grin
round face.
yup.
and then she dropped her bottle.
den her mum/elder sister, i dunno which,
gaver her a resounding slap on her cheek.
and that cute little girl i saw lost her smile.
became all watery-eyed and everything.
and all i wanted to do then was to give her a hug.
i dunno whats the world coming to.
she's juz a kid, wasn't that lesson a little too harsh for her??
that's why i say the world is cold cruel and unforgiving.
that made my day, perfectly bad.
as though it wasn't bad enough.
training wasn't bad attendance was bad.
somehow,
i really feel like i have been extremely successfully conned into pjc.
scammed, cheated, bluffed.
i have committed myself to an equally committed team
which is
moving on, along with their coach.
without me.
and the team that is replacing them,
is draining me
of my committment
faith and passion
for the game.
i need a break.
and i need to re-think my priorities.
in fact.
i have re-thought my priorities.
no point committing myself to a team which is not committed to themselves.
go for my training
make worth the coach's time
put in effort for those worth it.
worthless people belong in the bin.
and they should stay there.
suckers.
fugly people.
my studies first.
study study study.
graduate as soon as i can with the benefit of option.
not going to shortchange myself.
not going to let the school choose me like i did after my o-levels.
i'm going to put myself in the position to choose.
choose my school
choose my team or not.
choose choose choose.
i want to choose and losers can choose after i haf taken what i want.
bugger of people.
irritate me anymore and i'll slap you.
till your head spins.