hey guys

i juz learnt of a piece of sad news.
really really sad.
colby is going away to america.
texas i think.
on monday.
at 6am.
its really sudden.
at first i didn't think much of it, but then again
i'll really miss him.

he's the first guy i sat next to in primary 1.
i've actually known him for a decade...ten years...
3650 days...
so many hours and so many minutes...
well,
i guess that's life.
people never treasure the things they have until they realize its missing.
but still...
sigh.
its really saddening.
sigh.
i'll miss you colby...don't go....

signing off
tingyz~~ :(:(

friends forever

hey guys

today my pw group met.
we had a meeting
and we slacked...
super slacked...
but i guess its okay.
we juz sat around and talk.
i liked it, its actually better to haf a pw group that u can communicate with and won't do so well than a group that tries everything except communicating and not do that well too...
at least den blame wont be pushed around
i've never really like project work...
but i think it'll be good this time round.
go team...

tourney's coming...
oh well...
we must perservere.
think i got the spelling right...ahaha..
k...
things are normal....
yup...
juz now i heard a song that someone wrote for her class...
really really cool...
maybe i shall attempt to compose something for the team....
ahaha
GO TEAM!!!!!!!!!!

signing off
tingyz~~ :P:P

hey guys

i'm back.
this week.
well...
life;s been getting a little monotone this week...
and i've been stoning alot...
really...i haven done any homework and my classmates are already starting to go WOW when they've heard tt i've actually handed in my homework..
ahaha..

well...i guess that's life.ahaha..
ya...
n my civis tutor(ct) actually commented that she thinks i'm a little more mature than my classmates...
ahaha...
even the twins when "huh"
ahaha...
well..never judge a book by its cover...
especially when the cover's so thin..ahaha...

yup...
juz to mention...
my ct once asked if any of us had any learning disabilities..haha...
and i actually stupidly said i'm too smart...
ahaha...
immediately...
ahaha...that's so me...

okay..guess not...don't laugh till you fart...
let's see...
oh yup...
the badminton tournament starts next week..
aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
i'm so nervous...
i've been seriously screwing up during training...
haven seen so many outs in one practice game...
juz thinking about it scares the shit out of me man...
first game we're up against jj...
with a little luck...a little encouragement and all that we've got...
we'll see better days...
and the school will start to appreciate more...and discriminate us less...
seriously...screw the school somewhere...
badminton could do alot better if they gave us just a little support...
yup...but heck them..
we can survive on our own!!!!

i dunno...i guess i'm pms-ing...
got pranked in the school toilet before training...
seriously pissed me off....delia n hui qi...
think i dumb la...
but nvm i guess...
den trng was bad coz i screwed up...
i really had tt deep sinking feeling in my heart la...
its horrible...
its i think...i think its like getting kissed by a dementor...
you noe...
tt harry potter thing...
yup..

ahaha..well...
i stoned for a while again...
guess..badminton really distracts me...
ahaha..
and my sec school friends n i are having a three person conversation but the two of them r talking abt netball...
ahuh...
duh~~
what else am i supposed to say???
i'm only an amature whereas one was e captain in commonwealth and the other was a star...
i'm not even the moon...
ahaha..
lameness...
heck them anyways...

ahaha..u noe i had sth to blog abt...but then i sorta lost it when i started stoning...
but nvm...i shall crap...
haha...i noe patrick...
u noe..spongebob's best friend....he's in my class..
ahaha...
den i noe walter (water,h2o..)
ahaha...den there's this big sotong (pei wen)
she can be the octopus i guess..ahaha...
then there's my friend e netball captain...ahaha...
n there's me the stone...
stone...
n there's the cat and her twin..the copy cat...ahaha...
i guess i'm just entertaining myself...

well...

signing off
tingyz~~

hey guys and babes

woohoo!!! changed it...
haha...
anywaysssssssssssssss
this week has been utter crap...
lets see...
i think tuesday sucked completely...
physics test..
i'm a goner...
i think i'm gonna get seven out of thirty...
so yup...
do come to my funeral...should be round the corner...

okay...i guess the week wasn't tt bad...
its juz tt i studied really hard...
n the test was harder...
damn~~

and trng for singles and doubles was seperated..
i missed my hui qi n sheila!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
boohoohoo.....
hoho...
the tournament is coming...
hope we manage a breakthrough or sth....
muz pia!!!!
go pj!!!!

haha...as u can see...my thoughts are scattered everywhere...
too busy to think...

k...
guess its quite pointless...haha..
miss all my friends...
primary school,
secondary school,
and pae...
life won't get easier...
so push your limits man!!!

let what we hav all worked for so far be worth it...
show them they are wrong.
"results are a kind of measurable progress"
even though they're not an accurate yardstick of standards its what people compare us by...

signing off
tingyz~~ :P:P

hey guys,

to cheryl.
yes the week has been absolutely absolutely horrible.

so far,
i've only blogged about tuesday and monday..
monday was okay.
tuesday was disastrous.
wednesday was downright hellish.
thursday i was a survivor.
friday,
i was sacrificed.
twice.

seriously,
i know there would be lots and lots of people who will understand what i'm going through,
but they'll never understand how i feel.
they just brush things aside and get on with their own life.
i dunno why but sometimes its seems like that.
haha.
life just love to make a fool out of me.

i never saw what i was heading for celebrating new year at the beginning of this year.
i started with the ten most horrible things that could have happened to a student.
slowly i made my way through a few dark moments, a few brighter, a few blinding than i went through duck moments doing the duck walk.
haha again.

this week.
like i said.
i was sacrificed.
u noe about tuesday.
wednesday.
my bill came.
seriously it was the most horrible day, or least predicted of my life.
my brother came home from camp.
went for his scholarship interview which went fairly well
and made my dad happy.
really.
everytime my dad talked to him i could feel my face turning green.
green with jealousy....
green with all that nausea...disgusted by the unfairness of everything.

seriously...
sure i didn't keep to my limit...
as in made sure no EXTRA charges were incurred on my bill other then the monthly TWENTY NINE dollars....
but come on....
it reached..like my dad say...
an astronomical amount of THIRTY FOUR DOLLARS AND FOURTY NINE CENTS.
oh wow.
he's going bankrupt paying my phone bill.
excluding my school fees, my sis's school fees and household bills....
not to forget.
my brother's piano fees which used to go up to ONE THOUSAND DOLLARS each month.
enough to pay for mine for five months...
seriously...
i dunno what's his bloody problem.
and its not like i haven been making sacrifices...
i cut down on talk time, messages....even electricity to charge the bloody thing...
i've even sacrificed a LARGE part of my training.
so i don't get what's up with my dad and FIVE BLOODY DOLLARS!!!!!
i am seriously PISSED OFF!!!!!!!
worse thing is,
he confiscated my phone...again..wow big surprise~~~
and he's gonna deduct my meagre allowance of THIRTY FIVE DOLLARS per week to TWENTY FIVE BLOODY charity money la....
what am i supposed to live on????
come on lo....
i'm a JC girl...
i'm a sports person...
i have a huge brain...
and i am bloody intelligent when it comes to non-academic areas...really. (this is where you tag and agree)
i need clothes!!!!
sport shoes!!!!
badminton shoes!!!!
food!!!
nutrition!!!
i need to buy notes!!!!
stationary!!!!
i need $$$$$$$$$$$$$
HELLO DADDY I NEED MORE THAN TWENTY FIVE DOLLARS TO LIVE MORE THAN substantially...
so u see the word is substantially...
that was wednesday.

then comes thursday
almost died without my phone.
thank goodness for friends...thanks for offering your phone
maybe a little spare cash (cause my dad made me return him ten dollars for this week)
that i still have to pay back but not in the near future.
thanks.
but it still turned out a horrible day.
first we had that h3 subjects talk.
had to be nine points and below to qualify.
either that get nothing below an A for H2 subs abd B for H1
thanks soo hui for telling me its impossible.
its really great to hear it from you.
yeah man.
no better time, place and person.
thanks la...
den in class...
shit la...
had to clear shit for other people
and when our ct asked who considered taking up a h3 sub...
seriously...
some people shook their heads at me...
thanks guys....
thanks for reminding me that i'm juz an average twelve pointer...
nothing great...
whole bunch of them out there...
me and sheila...
i think we did the most horrible deed that anyone could do before good friday...
shall not elaborate.
eyeryone likes being in the jury
but....
nobody likes being an executioner....
...
then some people could not take hints man!!!!!
hint hint hint...
if i could tell u straight there would be no need for hints!!!!
hint hint hint!!!!!
then i watched my dear pals pig out while i sat in the middle to watch because i didn't haf the money to join them.
then training...
wasn't good.
i think my stamina is dropping and that really sucks considering the competition is coming...
i need to work harder. i wanna win!!!
i wanna stretch...
i want i want i want...
i need i need i need...
therefore.
i MUST!!!!!
yup...generally i thought i wan't a bad day...
it could just have been better...
but things change after u get home and see your parents u see....
my dad was still being petty about my billl...
and decided to be mean about it...
very mean...
he got home at about nine plus and saw me having dinner...
he asked why i got home late and i told him i had training...blah blah blah...
and out of the blue he said...
"don't understand why you could be captain, so irresponsible and cannot be trusted at all"
seriously...
WHAT LA????????????
what's he bloody problem????????????????
there's completely unfair, and hurtful la...
i hate him...
at that point i really hated him..
i think i still do...

then came friday...
horrible, horrible day...
my dad couldn't stop picking on me...
pick this pick that...
pick pick pick...
he bloody well go pick his nose man...
pick pick pick...
train pick...no time
don't train pick...no excercise...
play piano pick...noisy...
don't play also pick...wasting his money...
eat a little pick...wasting food...
eat more pick....gorging myself stupid...
pick pick pick.....
pick pick pick....
he should be a garbage cleaner la...
pick pick pick...
pick pick pick and PICK....
and all my mum could do was well...
keep mum abt everything and agree with everything my brother says...
all she ever talks about is my brother....
ur brother this ur brother that....
brother....brother brother...
in the evening when we were coming home from our grandparents place....
my brother was at PS....and my grandparents lived at potong pasir....i live at bukit batok..
he's a ns-man..no work no nothing...just polish his boots...
and they actuallt offered to pick him up la...
its not as though he's nine lo...
he's nineteen...HELLO...
irritating asses...
they wouldn't even pick me up from school after training....
its like five times nearer....
worse thing...
they also offered to send his friend home (boon lay)
they would never something like that fo me...
unfair unfair unfair...
i'm jealous jealous jealous...
unfair unfair unfair...
when things start to get like that...i really wonder...
would it make a difference if i were smarter....
or maybe if i were the youngest...
or maybe if i were the oldest...
or maybe if i were the dumbest...
or maybe if i weren't in pj...
maybe if my appeal was successful or maybe if i tried for DSA...
if i were at a college better than NJ...or maybe an equivalent...
maybe if i were more talented in music...
maybe if i were a national sport woman they might just remember that i'm their child as well and the most obvious thing that sets me and my brother apart is that he's a guy while i'm a girl...
simple as that...
haha...
impossible...
go yi hern you're the best...
yi ting??? i wouldn't be happy even if u tried your best...so why dont u try to be more like ur brother....
haha...

once again...
the things that i want so much are so near...
yet they're out of reach....
the people, persons, the things, the feeling, the success...

signing off
tingyz~~ :{:{

hey guys

back.
haha..
i'm at school now.
supposed to be doing PW now...but apparently someone deleted my PI file from the computer...
horrible asses...
yup and dumb me forgot to bring the hard copy...therefore...
there's nothing for me to do in the next hour or so..haha...
maybe i shall ask my whole class to visit...

niwaes from yesterday...yup...
bloody shirt,,,
den we had pe...
we were late and therefore we owe our pe teacher 300 jumpin jacks...
supposedly 360...370 den 380....
but we "pAid back" 80...
so we're left with 300..haha...
long way more...

den we had our chem test...
haha...went to the wrong lt...
and the test was doable but really challenging...
so i guess..i flunked...haha..

finally...so near yet so far...
the things i want...i'm reaching out...
but well...
yup...they edge further out...
haha...

signing off
tingyz~~ :~:~

hey guys

muz blog quickly today
parents constantly checking in
muz rush!!!

niwaes i remembered what i forgot
to blog abt in e previous post.
i wanted to tell EVERYBODY
that we played netball after trng on friday.
and you would have been able to see
13 lame ducks on e netball court
because we all had problems walking after all that duck walk.
yup.
and my team was one man down coz we only had thirteen ppl.
but we won anyway
yipee!!!!
and i scored the winning goal!!!
wipee!!!
and my coached sent me home after trng
yipee!!!!
i got home early and my parents din nag!!!
wipee!!!

yup...
oh ya...
n my brother..
he got into the third round of interview for the LTA scholarship.
if ever he gets the scholarship
my parents are going to be very pleased!!!
yipee...
not tt they aren't now...
but if they're happy i stand to benefit as well
hehe....
muahahaha...
good luck kor...
congrats too!!!!
my new shoes depend on u now!!!!
woohoo!!!

and i wanna improve in badminton!!!
woohoo!!!
i wanna push myself to the limit!!!
i wanna stretch!!!
i wanna train!!!
i love badminton,
and sheila, and hui qi and clara and delia and ying cong and soo hui and poh ling and QI ZHEN....woohoo...love them lots...

but i haven forgotten meng qi, pei yan, cheryl, hui hui, xian yee and annie....haha...love them lots as well...

of course my well divided love goes out to 06s12 as well!!!! woohoo!!!
i think my parents have gone off to lala-land...
so maybe i can afford a longer entry...
but i'm almost done anyways....
haha...
i'm going off to lala-land as well...yipee...
did i mention i love badminton???
haha...i do...really...

signing off
tingy~~ :P:P

hey guys,

at first i thought the week was great, nothing bad happened n homework kept me busy...
but then...
i juz realized i'm missing out on so much...so much...seriously...
firstly i feel horrible...
i missed xian yee's birthday.
horrible horrible...but i bought her a gift, it wasn't a surprise but i think she likes it.
den i juz realized, juz tt i missed meng qi's birthday as well...n tt dumb bitch was a great pal...
thats why she always minded me calling her a d.b. but never blamed me...or bitch me back...
n her birthday was on e 9th of march.
happy birthday gal!!!! veri belated...almost a month...
hope u drop by n see this soon!!!
so sorry once more!!!!
they're my secondary school friends..
n juz a forthnight ago it was walter's birthday n i missed it as well!!!!!!!!!
its like what?????
n he plays BADMINTON in PJC...but nvm i guess...
haha...
he'll never visit my blog anyways..haha..
all he knows is bubble tea and anime...haha..so nevermind..haha..

i feel better now..
but that wasn't to assuage my guilt...
it was to make it up to my friends...haha...
okay..maybe a little...
but yup...
hmmm...i'll be really sad if anyone forgot my birthday....
because its in january...
haha...but yup..sorry guys...

well...
i really wish i had more time everyday.
ya studying is real important..
so is pleasing my parents...
but somehow they can never be as important as my friends...

to the point.
the week passed by really quickly...plenty of times i had e impression we were still in e second week...
homework was everywhere...
seriously..from monday to thursday i slept four n a half hours everynight...at most five...
thank goodness for coffee..

yup..lets see...monday i had trng n got home at around nine...dinner and a bath took me to nine forty fight n it was time for homework...n then blah blah blah...

but i guess today was my most hectic/exciting day...
i slept for eight whole hours on thursday night!!!!!!
woohoo!!!!
n i had two near death experiences..
firstly, i left my watch to dear rui shan during pe...
my new watch tt i had to buy to replace the one i lost...
the one tt cost me my ENTIRE fortune...
e one that cost a reccession in yi ting's economy which is currently still recovering...
yup...den xiu xuan started feeling unwell...
blah blah blah...
so she went to the sick bay n rui shan accompanied her...
den they left my watch there...
after xiu xuan went home...
n i couldn't find it!!!!!!!!!!!
horrible!!!!!!!!!!!
seriously i almost DIED...
but i found it in e end coz xiu yi took me to e sick bay a second time to look for it so i din die...
that's why its a near death experience...

then there was trng...
we did almost 400m of duck walk..
i really saw my end...
i looked really at peace in a coffin juz tt i had duck feet man...seriously...
throughout the torturous ordeal i was going
kill me!!!! kill me!!!
but i survived anyways despite the several attempts on my life because i AM BLESSED!!!!
woohoo!!!
so thats my near death experience number two...haha..

yup n befor i forget..jorene told me to blog that
i miss her alot because we're no longer in the same class....hope she sees this if she's interested in my life enough she might scroll down...haha...

n oh wow...i juz found out sth else really amazing.......
sharon.
a ex-badminton player from kranji
ying cong's best friend
who has utterly no relation with me...mere accquaintances n maybe casual friends is actually on close terms with cheryl...my best friend in commonwealth!!!!!!!!!!!
its like wow la!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!

the world is simply shocking...!!!!!!!!!!!!! wow!!! i'm super amazed la...
i always knew e world was small...but not this small!!!
its like wow lo!!!!
OMG...super duper wow!!!!!!!!!!

i've utterly forgotten what i wanted to blog about because i'm so shocked...

signing off
tingyz~~ :O:O